Hi..

It has been quiet a long time since I have posted my previous topic.

Death is something that most of us wants to skip and some of us might want it as per our convenience. A minute before we ask for death, then the other minute will be forgetting about that. Some  might want it to happen anytime as the universe wish to provide us. Very few might already know when they die. Still whatever we want, death is something common to everybody.

Some say death is something in which we change our forms from Human to other. Some say we go to hell or heaven based on our deeds. Some say you have seven births. I don't know which one to be believed but death is common. Though we get developed in technology & Science, after death is still mysterious. I might crack it once I face my death and of course I will be in a place where I can't share this knowledge with you. 

I am a part of my family group in whatsapp, in which they posted a picture with a message 

" IN THIS WORLD PEOPLE DON'T GET JEALOUS, ONLY FOR THE THING CALLED DEATH ".

Yeah true cause we all know someday, sometime in the night or in the day will leave this world forever not even saying goodbye to our loved ones, not even asking sorry to the people to whom we showed our ego.

When I was a baby, I didn't know and didn't care much about death. As I am growing, as my wishes, achievements, relationships, friendships and happiness are growing I don't want to die. Once I cross my sixties, once all my beloved ones are leaving the world, I embrace my death, I embrace my peaceful death, I wish I will meet all my dear ones somewhere above. I might get a chance to talk with them, smile with them, ask them once more do they really love me. So somewhere down the line I feel jealous for the people who die peacefully. Enjoying the company of all their beloved ones life long is better rather than dying later, being left alone in the World without the people you have started your life with. So I feel the above saying has to be changed as

" IN THIS WORLD PEOPLE DON'T GET JEALOUS ONLY FOR THE THING CALLED UNPLEASANT DEATH ".

Thanks for reading and let me know what is your thought about death. 

Hello, I hope all are doing great in their life. I wish the same for all the years and decades.

I know the topic is so sensitive and everyone have different opinion on their married life. But I am not speaking about married life it is totally about marriage and life. I personally prefer that our life shouldn't be a married life after marriage cause our life is always our life and marriage is a part of that life. Also I want to point out that the thoughts that I am going to share here in this post is  entirely my opinion and my thoughts. If I am hurting or misleading anybody please forgive me.

It was fine evening, when me and my well wisher having a cup of tea together. We were discussing some important stuffs and I was sharing about my blog. He saw the topic in my draft saying "Marriage and life" and it was total empty just like I am totally blank about it. That's how the discussion about marriage has started. It went about 1 hour or 2 hours not sure.... But I can't come to a conclusion that this is what marriage is. I felt this is the right time to publish my post as I am getting married in 2 or 3 months. Yet I don't know Why do we need marriage?

I am just going to openly discussing about "Why do we need marriage?" and as always you can share your opinions, you can oppose mine, you are free to find mistakes on my post. 

Let's say Marriage is for maintaining equilibrium in the Universe. 

Sorry I really want to laugh out loud, Am I going to maintain the balance, If I am getting married Of course not, to be frank, if I am not getting married then may be I can contribute something to the Universe in creating an equilibrium. So, I prefer not to lean on this reason

Let's say love and care.

Why do you need it from 3rd person, when you can already receive it from your family and friends. 

Don't say, parents can't be with me life long. Who gave you the assurance that the person whom you going to marry will be there with you life long. 

Don't say, friends will leave us when they get their own family. Then tell me who gave you the promise that the person whom you going to marry will stick with you forever without any wavering thoughts. Each second of life is mysterious and each moment that I am going to pass is hideous. Then why there is a need of marriage. So, of course I don't want to lean on this one as well.

Let's say for sex/love making

May be I will go with this reason like 25 percent. You can ask me why?

I can hear you were saying why don't we try it with call girls/ prostitutes (Men & women). But many of us are not okay with that right. Though we can, but our inner mind won't accept the fact of doing that. We need some passion, we need some pull towards that person to have that with them. But still I can't accept this completely as some people who are not at all eligible to have this thing wants to marry too.. 

So, I am concluding that marriage is a ritual that happens as a part of my life where I want to give my word and recognition to his/her with whom I personally feel I want to share the life with, apart from the members who share my blood. I commit myself to that person forever. I commit myself that I am not sure about the long arriving future but as far as I view my life, I want you to be there with me. I might get attracted to new person and people, but I will never give up on you. I will be happy to even live with your memories. To be frank marriage doesn't need any reason. It has only one thing in mind that I want his/ her in my life. It doesn't throw any control over you. I feel marrying his/ her won't stop me pursuing the dreams that I framed in my life. Even if there comes a barrier, I believe we can deal with them together. I will be there with you whenever you need my shoulder and I believe you reciprocate the same. Mangal sutra or any materialistic thing can't control your commitment. But I naturally prefer to be with him/her. Please never marry someone for a sake. Do it with your whole commitment. 

Thanks for reading. Believe everyone of you find your person of life. ALL THE BEST  

If god appears and ask for a wish, I would ask 100 more wishes as my one wish. Because, I have so many wishes and to fulfill them the one wish won't be enough for me. But if god neglects that and if he says he can offer only one wish, then I will prefer to have a recorded copy of my entire past days that I have lived so far. Which can allow me to validate myself. The good memories makes me feel so excited. The bad ones may give me a thought that I have improved myself with those bad experiences. Here in this post, I wanted to share some of my childhood memories that I have in my mind which always makes me smile whenever I think about it..

How many of you had a habit of holding something while sleeping? A doll or a pillow or a peculiar item. I like to hold my mom's hair, not only holding I used to have tip of her hair in my mouth. This is how I sleep in my childhood. Nice to know your habit of sleeping in the comment. Share it if you wish to. May be it will spread smile on people's lips.

Past days were awesome small little crushes, some serious fights yet we know that they wont lost for a longer period of time. How surprising it is, days had moved so far. I am no more a kid. I can never forget the cycle races that I had with my friends (Girls & Boys) after finishing the coaching classes. The stamina that I possessed to beat even boys in race. Oh I badly need them back. The dream of getting into ISRO, when me and my friends were reading about Kalpana Chawla lesson in English subject. Those are the golden moments. Being a pet to some subject teachers. In my school days, getting a sweet lovable pinch from my favorite teacher was a blessing. We really had a big respect on our teachers. Group studies that we do, productive fight to get the 1st rank in school. Getting a 1st rank or 2nd Rank Badge and standing in the 1st row during assembly were our dreamy wishes. 

Funny, That's why I wanna share it. I used to remove all my ornaments (Bangles, earrings, bindi), if I was angry 😁😁😁😁😁😁

In my Upper Kinder Garden, I don't know what is Jaundice. One of my class mate's father was died due to Jaundice. Me and my friend (Yasithra) were thinking that it was a monster which killed her father, it was living in the isolated house in our colony. We planned to enter into the house and kill the monster. I was imagining that the place will be filled with Volcano yet not hot. Jaundice is a yellow color monster with black spots (May be like Spongebob but oval in shape with cruel eyes). Yellow come into picture because my class mate told that his father's eyes were so yellowish when he had jaundice. Stupidity right? But it was an heroic moment. One day I told our plan  to my grandma when she was feeding me my Breakfast. She didn't bother to explain what is Jaundice but she asked me not to go anywhere without getting permission from elders. I really inspired by her talent.She is good at making up awesome stories, we can eat any amount of food just by hearing those stories. No tablets, mobiles, television were used.

Oh my god, If I am continuing with this I can say 100's of such moments. Absolutely, that is the reason I need a recorded copy of my childhood. I request whoever read this to share your nice childhood memory..

Have a happy life ahead............

I believe everyone of you have a common definition about them. A person with feminine character and without feminine physical features. Also a person with masculine character and without masculine physical features (a rare case).

When I search through the meaning for transgender, it says those who are deviating themselves from the birth sex. Even when God is creating us he is not sure, whether this soul is going to be a Man or Woman that's why, all of us have nipples. Watch Madan Gowri's video on You tube for more info.  

Reason one, you will find variety of people, who makes a funny videos, who do videos with their children (Eg Mila) - I love her attitude & expression, seeing her talking makes me forget all my depression, there are one set of people who always make memes with politicians and going to be politician (True, If people think so). Sometimes I get confused whether they are making memes with politician or speaking about gender. Some people will speak about current trending things (please use your analyzing power before doing so).

Reason two, you really don't need someone to be online to have a conversation with you. You can comment your thoughts on anybody's post. Some will agree, some will start arguments. Whatever not like Watsapp, you can spend hours and hours watching it. 

Just like all other day, I was scrolling through the feeds. The trending news, nowadays, in quotes is Abirami killed her Son, Daughter and planned to kill her husband. Someone posted something like this "I think these kind of cruel things are happening because of television Dramas" True Or Not. Which triggered me a lot and I have posted my comment as a disagreement to his thought. The same made me to write this post after my previous post. A week and 4 days back.

My comment -  I will tell you. TV dramas are not the reason. We are marrying for some sake and living for some sake. If a person really moving forward with an ambition to achieve something crucial in his life. he won't get distracted, merely by seeing TV dramas. 

I believe, the words that I said on that post is true from my view.  Television may impact our thoughts but definitely not without us having an evil thoughts inside us. 

It has been only 8- 12 hours may be less than this, after publishing the news about Abirami. Many were sharing her videos, many were accusing her, cursing her and giving her names. But how do you know that she really did it. Did you see her doing it? 

Television / other medias is just a tool which connects us with the outer world apart from our community. A person with 6 senses, won't accuse, abuse or curse a wrong doer just by hearing something that shown on the electric box. It's really funny and sad to hear that a box invented by man is controlling the human behaviors and attitudes. 

Imagine this scenario-

You are studying in school, let's think you are in 5th or 6th grade. You are eating your lunch at your desk. Your co bench mate is running towards his place with a shinning brand new geometry box and left it in his desk in hurry. You have done with your lunch and went to wash your lunch box. Lunch is over and everyone is coming to class. The guy who came with a new geometry box before is checking his bag, his desk, asking his friends that anyone has seen his geometry box. No one has any idea. Then the guy who lost his geometry box remembers that you were the only person who knows that he brought the new geometry to his place. He turns towards you and ask do you have any idea. But you don't. Sadly, he is not believing you and complained to the class teacher that you are the one who took his box. All your classmates and your class teacher doesn't believe your words. 

How hurting it will be for you to be pointed for some bad doing when you don't even have an idea over it?  

Situation is small. May be you could have proved that you didn't do the mistake. But think the emotions that you went through. Remember the feel in your heart.

Don't believe everything that you see in TV and newspaper. Just because a crowd says that Earth is a cube. Earth won't become cube. We have been given with the power to analyse. But we are so lazy to use it. If lawyers, judges and investigating officers believe whatever they see in TV. Do you think you can safeguard the justice? What if in few weeks we come to know that everything was a planned projection of her husband? What if she says that the testimonial that I gave was false? What if she gave it because she was blackmailed or tortured? Will you again curse her husband for everything?

I say this is called stupidity. Whatever once said has never been taken back. Keep that in mind.

My humble request - When you are going to post something to a huge community, think, think, think a lot. Please. 

Some says doing something is better than nothing. 

But in this case, it fails.

Doing nothing is better than posting something false.

I am very sure that many of us have faced this situation. We can't call it as jealousy but still we can't feel the happiness. It makes us feel sad and depressed. Sometimes, we will fight with the superpower so called GOD who is there somewhere hiding in clouds or walking with us wearing clothe which makes him invisible to us like the one we saw in Harry potter. Even we can't see him/ her, still we fight with him, shout at him, share our sorrows with him.

How many of us have felt a stroke of pain when your colleague, your dear most friend or someone you know share that they got a nice job with a huge salary, that they found a person of their life or that they are going to getting married. I hope maximum number of people would have faced it. We felt the pain not because they achieved/ obtained, it's because Why I too can't get that happiness.When these thoughts were going inside our mind, we hide our internal storm with a smile in our lips, will congratulate, ask necessary questions. Obviously, from heart we wish them to grow higher.

We are the people who won't cry in-front of anybody but will cry under the blanket. Yet we woke up in the next morning with a strong hope of doing something to overcome our sorrow like I created a blog, preparing for bank exam, preparing for next interview, doing something for the society. Will motivate ourselves that someday good things will come to us and we plan to increase the amount of effort we put forward. 

Our imagination of reaching success is like a bird, that opens their wings, fly higher and anywhere.

But still some people may think we are jealous of people who achieve things. Why even we, ourselves feel 

ARE WE JEALOUS ON THEM?

WHAT I SAY IS? ...........     a big NO

If you guys know the real word for the feel we face, comment it down.  

Guys, I am really not sure we will achieve or not. But don't lose hope. Keep on moving forward. 

If I ask "Have you ever cried and for what?"

Many of us would have answered immediately that

I have cried when I failed in something that I am thriving to achieve,

I have cried when I lost someone close in my life,

I have cried when I was hurt severely,

I have cried when I missed someone,

I have cried when my life was taking a horrible path that I never expected,
I have cried when someone helped me at the right time,
I have cried when I get a blessing from a person whoma I helped at his difficult situation,
I have cried when someone I never expected has showered me with love.

When we look at these answers closely, immediate thing that comes to our mind is something that is real, an existing thing, that happened in our real life.

But lets think little deeper, you will find out that you have cried for some 

imaginary things too.

Examples could be,you would have cried for someone's sorrow that you saw in a movie,

some heart touching poetic lines would have made you cry, some interesting romantic novels would have triggered your tear bursting hormones.

Of course, I too have faced many such circumstances where I have cried for somea imaginary happenings. I have cried when I was watching a scene from the movie called Gajini (Tamil Movie). In that particular scene Villian beats the heroine's head with a shovel, like a golfer hit the golf ball with his stick. We would have seen so many scene like this but will feel for it only when the person creates a connection with us. So this heroine is a kind of a person who wants to achieve in her life, she is very helpful, she can make anybody her friend with her attitude. Other situations that made me cry are: when I was reading a  heart melting poetic lines that speaks about husband's love towards his wife during her pregnancy, there are few other movies and romantic novels are in a list that made me shed tears. They are quiet normal and happens to anybody.

But recently I have cried while I was reaching an end of a thriller novel, which is not an usual thing. Thrillers always hold us in mystery, make our heart to beat fast, it won't let us keep the book down. We readers knew already that good people going to win at the end but what makes us to read the novel? How they arrive at the climax?. Definitely, climax won't give us any kind of thrill or any mystery. Only expression we will be left with, "oh my god, I finished the story but it was awesome to travel through the novel. Yeah of course, finding a best book again could be a little bit time consuming thing. But I have not cried cause I am going to finish the novel, I cried because one of the main character was dead due to his old age illness - Pancreatic Cancer. In my view, it is little bit weird. He faced a normal death yet that made me miss him. I felt like it is an end of his life. He won't be there in any other parts of his Creator's coming up novel. It's like death of Logan in Logan . He is gone, we can't see him again. 

I know all of you will be eager to know THE BOOK's NAME.

Mr. Mercedes Trilogy by Stephen King. The best thriller I have ever read. Mr. Mercedes is the 1st part, Finders Keepers is the 2nd  - it is a standalone novel, End of watch is the 3rd.

If you guys are not into reading, then you guys have an option of watching Mr. Mercedes series. But I doubt that it will be more interesting than the novel.